So it begins...

     As some of you may know, I am a Christian college student, as well as a freelance poet, writer, and artist. As some of you may also know, I've been grappling with my faith for some time now, and I've realized that I've very nearly entirely slipped into some kind of hopeful agnosticism.

     Yeah, I believe in God [as a fiercely logical person, I honestly see more reason to believe in Him than not (which I'll expound on in a future post)], and I used to have a really close relationship with Him, but all the same, I've grown to feel almost an animosity toward Him and the "Christians" in my life.

    I'm sick of the hopelessness, depression, and anger which accompanied my distancing myself from God, though. I have an insatiable, maddening emptiness within me which was once filled by a joyous, tangible, fulfilling relationship with a loving and holy God.

     I want to return to that. I'm not sure of the process, and while I know God's on my side, it's been hard as heck so far. I'm learning, slowly, though, to trust, and am seeing conclusive evidence that this "relationship" is the single most important decision of my life, and that it's going to be infinitely worth whatever anger, tears, fears, and sacrifices I've got to go through on the way.

     But yeah, enough about me. As far as the blog itself goes, I'm hoping to include personal stories, scripture studies, and, as I revisit why I believe in God, my "apologetics" findings, too.
     I may offend some of you, because I'm not going to try to mask the messed up place I am now, and while I hope that will not be the case... ...it's pretty likely. I will try to avoid it, though.

     So... Yup. Welcome to my journey.